At the time in July there were things going on in my life that were stressful and hectic and the week of the July theater shootings I decided to deactivate my FB account, why? So I could be removed from everything that was a distraction to my life, so I could put all effort and energy into my life and things that were going on. Well the shooting happened and she (my possible IM) knew I lived in the vicinity of what happened and apparently she tried to contact me via FB, but I was gone. Come to find out months later after she had not responded to several messages, or posted on my wall ( after I reactivated at the end of August) I looked at her blog and what did I see? A post about me and how I cut her out of my life and that all she was to me were possible $$ signs....SERIOUSLY?? She did not try to contact me via text message, and YES she had my number, or email and again YES she has that too. She just spewed vial words of disgust about me on her blog.
I am in awe of this post, because I needed time away from FB she ASSumes that I am just a careless, money grubbing piece of dirt. So I tried messaging her, again, and no response so I CALLED her on both numbers I had, emailed her and do you think I got a response? No, and crazy still we are still FB friends, you would think if I blocked her or unfriended her we would not still be FB friends but we are, you know why?? Because I NEVER did what she ASSumed I did. I cannot believe that she would go as far as not to return my calls, text message, email or FB message.
To think I did use ALL methods of communication at my disposal to contact her to let her know what really happened, something SHE should have done if she really cared if I was alright............. But maybe that is just me and the way I think, I don't know. I needed to get that out of my system, vent it into cyber space. I don't yet know how I should react, unfriend her? really truly block her? I still care about her and I know will still think about and wonder if her dream of becoming a mom of 2 (or 3) actually happens. I know I won't unfriend her, I didn't I am still in some strange way on her side. She truly is an amazing women and I still want nothing but the best for her and her family so I will accept sitting on the sidelines like some thrown away piece of trash. I know who I am, I know my value, I know my loyalty. I will act like me no matter what is thrown in my face. No matter what I will still cheer her on. I wrote this post back in October of 2012 and am just now posting it... I wasn't sure if I ever wanted to but I think now is as good a time as any.