Thursday blues...

So it has been a little while since I updated, why? Well because I have had some complications with my cervix and have not felt like being on the computer much let alone actually put into words how I am feeling. So it started on Tuesday this week I went in for my regular OB appointment. I figured all would be just fine give last Thursday my appointment went great. Well it was not the case. Everything is fine with me EXCEPT my stupid cervix. So back to Tuesday, my cervix measured between 1.63 & 1.80 which was down from a strong 2.5 on Thursday last week. I was crushed, I have been resting and hardly doing much. My Dr. has not put me on any kind of strict guidelines or even really said bed rest, just told me to try to stay off my feet and each appointment because things were good was " Keep doing what your doing" just crushing. So I have been in the bed as much as I can. I don't do much around the house, my hubby and oldest have picked up the slack. I had help twice and she was great, it was nice to not have to think about certain things.

Today, I went in not feeling to hot to begin with, I have been feeling more and more pressure "down there" and did not have a great feeling about today's check. Well it was not great to say the least. The babies look great and are oblivious to what is going on..lol My cervix was between 1.3 & 1.6. Dr. B says he is calling it the same with slight change but to me it changed and not for the best. He had already told me on Tuesday this week that his gut is that I will be in the hospital on bed rest soon. So this measurement is just me inching closer and closer to the Antepartum unit. I just feel horrible, like my body is failing me and these babies. It is just so scary to think that they might come so soon. Never mind that fact that I will be away from my family for goodness know how many weeks. Just sucky feeling this way. I was chosen to do this to help, not to hinder and if these 2 are born anytime soon they will have NICU time and GOD how I do not want that for them. I can remember how AWFUL and helpless I felt when my twins were born and they had to spend time in the NICU with tubes and monitors. They were not there long and were born at 34.6 weeks so they just had to gain weight and keep their O2 stats up. These 2 will have more issues if they come anytime soon. I guess only time will tell with me body.

But on a happy note here is a 29 week belly picture!