Getting there

So I am 24 weeks pregnant and today I am feeling it, I guess. I went to be last night around the same time I usually do but still woke up like I had on had a few hrs. of sleep. I am SOOO tired, I mean fall asleep while driving, or eating or just about anything tired. I have a huge mound of laundry that needs to be done and I cannot get myself to take the load out of the dryer so I can continue. I am surprised that I am updating today given I'm so tired but I figure maybe if I stay busy I can stay awake.

So things are going great, no real complaints or issues. It is finally March and a year ago I was getting ready to give birth. I cannot believe that my surro daughter is almost 1 yr. It is crazy to see pictures and remember that she is here because I helped. It warms my heart to hear my guys gush about her and all her wonderfulness. I love to show my hubby and kids her pictures. I am supposed to be going out to see her on her b-day and spend some time with my guys. I will be 26 weeks by then, they ( my guys) are always so shocked to see how big I am. They just keep remembering how big I was with C and they KNOW that there are 2 in there..LOL I am looking forward to seeing them all again!

So I found out that I have to talk the the anesthesiologist about wanting to be knocked out for the delivery. But I have confirmed that the guys won't be able to be in there if I do decided to be knocked out. They have already said they are OK with that, but we shall see the closer we get if they really are alright with not being in the delivery room. C's delivery was so special and just awesome I am thinking they will be a little let down to not see these 2 the second they are born, but I may be wrong. I hope I am wrong because I don't want them to feel left out or not part of this process after all they are the only reason we are going through this journey.

YAY!!!

So things have been going great, not a whole lot to report which is ALWAYS good, but even better when you're pregnant with multiples. So I am now 21 weeks!! So I am very excited that things have been going so well. I am praying that things continue to go well.



So I have been feeling LOTS of movement recently which is such a great feeling. I know that they are OK and thriving when I can feel them move, right now they feel like a child tapping on you to get your attention. Later on they will feel more like cartwheels and somersaults, and then in the end most likely it will feel like they are trying to break out.LOL I have noticed this past week that I have to slow down and am not able to do as many things during the day. I also have a hard time getting around.LOL I know I am all belly but that's OK with me. I just hope they decided to lay transverse vs. head down, why? because then my belly will grow width wise vs. out. Only time will tell on that though.

I talked to the guys this week and am SOOOO excited to say that I have been invited to Caroline's first birthday! St. Patty's day is her birthday and I can't wait! I am so blessed to have these guys in my life. I still have to find a gift for her, not sure what to get yet. I have been looking and thinking about it a lot though.

overdue update

Yes it has been a while since my last update. I cannot lie and say things have been super busy as they haven't. I have just not really felt like updating LOL. It is hard for me to get my feelings out, whether that is talking or writing.

I feel fine, I feel pregnant finally! I am getting a lot rounder and have noticed my belly is starting to get in the way. It's funny because I will be in the back of my car buckling in my twins and then try to quickly get out of the car but the bottom of my belly no longer allows my legs the flexibility they once had. I have started to talk to the babies, they are most active at night just like their sister was. I will gently rub my growing belly, thinking of the time I get to introduce them to their sister. I can say I am more attached to this pregnancy than last, because I was not sure how to feel, how not to feel. It is a fine line surrogate walk with our feelings. On one hand we cannot forget that we are carrying precious cargo not for ourselves but for the families we are helping, yet we (most) love the cargo that is inside. Not that we want to keep the babies, but how can you not have love for the baby or babies you are carrying that you yourself put so much effort into helping create? You watch what you eat, you make sure you get enough water, you slow down and ask your family to pick up your slack. This is all in the name of bringing a baby to its parents, family, grandparents, sisters, brothers, cousins, uncles & aunts. There are so many people that go through this journey called surrogacy. I LOVE what I have been able to help do. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE watching Caroline grow, seeing her smile with all 6 teeth she has, love hearing about her favorite activities, hearing about her development knowing she is such a happy calm soul. I cherish it almost like I have cherished all those same moments of my own children.

On to the genders...................................................................................................................................................................

BOTH GIRLS!!!!

Yes that is right 2 more girls. The guys were happy, yes of course I knew there was a twinge of sadness because they will never have a son, but for them to know that their daughters are healthy and perfect in every way is all that truly matters. They only had one other girl name that they are both in agreement in, so they are currently working on another one, as soon as I know what it is I will write about it. I don't like referring to the babies, as " the babies" I loved knowing Caroline's name from very early on.

I have been growing and eating, my appetite has finally arrived which is great. I am always wondering if I get enough water and protein. Some OB's say to gain 20 lbs by 20 weeks. I think that is a LOAD OF CRAP. I will focus on the more important task of getting enough protein, veggies and water.

Well till next time.

December 27th!

So December 27th was a truly GREAT DAY!! My first couple I matched with back in September 2008 ( did not get to work with them) had a JOYOUS day. Their surro K delivered 2 healthy babies! A boy named David Leonardo and a girl Abigail Rose. After the heart breaking loss of their first son in March 2009, they are parents to 2 healthy BEAUTIFUL children. I found out the morning they were born ( a GREAT HONOR ) but have had to keep my big mouth shut till the parents did their announcement. I cried tears of joy for the past 3 days. I have been so blessed to get to know M. We were instant friends when we matched and have kept in close contact the past 2 yrs. She was a HUGE support for me during my pregnancy last year when I was feeling lonely. She always puts others first and is such a wonderful person. I am just so elated for her and her hubby. they deserve this happiness so much, David & Abigail are such lucky children to not only have them as parents but to be blessed to have ALL the family they have. That family is a GREAT one.

CONGRATS M & D!!!

Love you both and now I get to love all 4 of you!

Almost a new year!

So 2010 was a great year for myself and my family. I am sort of sad to see it go, but all good things must come to an end.

So a New year is on the horizon. I am praying and hoping it is a good year. This year will be full of twists and turns I am sure, being pregnant with twins usually means a curvy road of sorts. So I have my OB appointment with my Dr. on the 4th and I cannot wait! I get to see the twinks ( that is what the guys call them so I will too.LOL) again and I am sure we will be able to tell the sexes. I LOVE knowing before the guys. I am really HOPING that there is at least one boy in there. Considering this may just be my last pregnancy and given I have never carried a boy it would be so cool. Why do I care? I am not sure really, maybe it is to prove to myself that my miscarriage about 7 yrs. ago was not because my body cannot carry boys but because there was something wrong and that was mother natures choice. I know it does not make sense to many but these are the thoughts that I have always had and it would be great to be able to put them to rest.

I have been still having tummy troubles, not sure of the cause but they are still there and some days are better than others. I have to get another twin pregnancy book, I sold all of mine a few yrs. ago never thinking I would need them again.LOL I went to the grocery store today to buy some protein powder, I got Boost High Protein it actually tastes great! So that is a plus. I HATE to drink milk and this stuff makes the horrid taste of it. I have to consume at least 112 grams of fiber starting at 20 weeks so I figure it is best to get a jump on it now, vs. later. I need to get better at planning my meals so that is what I am going to be doing this week. I am always sooo picky with eating so I need to make sure they are not only meals my family will like but me as well and that is going to be a BIG challenge.

Oh can't forget, when I go see my OB I am going to be talking to him about her neurotic MFM I saw, and will have to see again on the 14th of January for the 16 week scan. She scared the crap out of my IF's and I talked to them about how I felt. I told them that her job surrounds negative things ALL DAY and she is just SUPER cautious because that is her job, but normal twin pregnancies do not require MORE scans, or appointments. I LOVE them because they said that they agree and what ever Dr. B thinks is the plan is what they will go with! Now I have no problem seeing a MFM if there is ( God forbid) something wrong. But to just go as a precaution is just over kill and never mind time consuming.

Been a while, I guess.

So I guess it has been a while since I last updated. I have just not been a a updating mood I guess. Everything is going great. I am 12.5 weeks pregnant with twins! They are doing great, I am doing really well too. Besides feeling tired all the time I don't feel pregnant yet. Yesterday we had the nuchal scan and it went great. They both have a VERY low risk and we are just waiting on the blood work. The Guys flew out for the appointment and we were all very relieved to see both of them happy and healthy. A was very calm and did not move a whole lot, while B was all over the place. It was a good appointment. The only negative thing I can say is the MFM (maternal fetal medicine) Dr. was crazy. She "recommended" to the guys for me to see her once a month and then every 2 weeks starting at 20 weeks. Umm yeah that is NOT going to happen. If my OB recommends me to then I will, but I think MFM's are simply overzealous. She is just WAY to overly cautious. I am NOT going to 2 different dr's 3 times per month, that is just simply over kill. Never mind that she has no real reason for recommending that I do, besides that my twins were born at 34.6 weeks. They were a spontaneous labor birth. I never was dilated, and my cervix was long and closed 2 days before I went into labor. No matter how many times I see her a month she cannot prevent a spontaneous labor, period. Ugh dr's annoy the shit out of me sometimes, the way they handle pregnancy, labor/birth is just stupid. OK enough of my rant. They are doing great and so am I.

Christmas is right around the corner and I am so ready for it to be here and done already. So much prep goes into on stinking day it is just gross. I swear if I did not have children I would just boycott the whole holiday. Too much effort and money for a holiday that is just for the retailers to make more money off of the consumer. Oh well got to make the economy go round I guess.

Not sure how to feel...

So I am actually pregnant!! I am happy that I am but I am not really sure how to feel that I am pregnant with twins, again. Yes I have always known this was a very real possibility but I never really thought it would happen. So my IF's are very happy and excited, more so that it even worked the first try again, than anything else. they both were just so sure that because it worked so well and smooth the first time that this time it was going to take a couple of tries. Well looks like they were really wrong. I had an easy pregnancy with my twins so I am not worried about that part at all. I am not really sure what my actual feelings are. I am sure I will sort it out eventually.

So far this pregnancy has been very easy. No morning sickness at all, no anything really. I barely feel pregnant. If I was not soo tired or had actually cravings I would not even think I was pregnant. I have NEVER had cravings with any of my other pregnancies, I usually have a Libra brain when it comes to what I want to eat and when I am pregnant that is amplified by 100 but not this time, I always know what I want to eat. It is GREAT, so that and the fact that I am not feeling sick at all makes me think that these 2 are boys!! Man would that be exciting, considering out of 5 babies they have ALL been girls! Only time will tell!.