Do you feel pregnant??

How to answer this question. No I don't, I never do. Even with my previous twin pregnancies I don't "feel pregnant" I am not nauseaus, my boobs don't hurt I am not overly tired. Not in the beginning at least. I have the occasional queasiness but it is nothing really. I am natrually a sleepy person so I doubt I would really notice being really tired. I wish sometimes that I felt pregnant so that way I could relax a bit knowing that the symptoms of pregnancy mean that the baby is growing. I hate waiting for the first u/s and because it is not till I am 7 weeks it is a LONG wait.

I have been trying to keep myself busy with little projects around the house that need to be completed but I am running out of things to do and surfing the web in between is getting very old. I am hoping these next 10 days go by a bit faster.....

Numbers of the day!!

So I have been waiting to post my numbers because I wanted to see how well they would double, if they doubled at al. On Monday I went in for my first beta and that came back at 382 and we were all very pleased with this number. I know what this number means, for me, which I am not thrilled about but am happy all the same to be pregnant. This number is only 20 points higher than my first beta with my surro twins. So I am pretty sure there are 2 beans snuggling in. Today my beta came in at 1468 which puts me around 37 hrs. of doubling time. They ant to see it doubling around every 48hrs. So I am right on track!

Do I feel any different, nope. The same as I always do,maybe a touch of nausea here and there but nothing really. I don't usually feel pregnant even with the twins. Only time shall tell I guess.

Seeing double!!

Surrogates are notorious for peeing till they drop..lol You get that much wanted 2nd line but you HAVE to make sure it gets darker and you have something to compare it to so we pee, and pee and pee some more! That is JUST what I have been doing, and my hubby thinks I am insane, just like the other 2 journeys he thought the same.

As you see above those are MY lines!!! I am 6dp5dt and that is an amazing line! I got my first real line on 4dp5dt which is a scary thought. I am beginning to think both of these embies stuck around. I am going to keep testing to see how the line progress. It will be a LOOOOOOOOOOONG 3 days till beta but I have made it this far so just a little bit further to go.

Shadows....

So I actually started testing yesterday...crazy I know. Today I am 4dp5dt (4 days post 5 day transfer) and I was not expecting to see anything and this mornings test gave me just that nothing. I am testing 3 times a day till I get a solid line or till I realize there will be no line and with that said I tested this afternoon and............ There is a shadow!! SO I am optimistic,that this shadow will turn into a wonderful strong dark line. Only time will tell. Oh an just a disclaimer, the above picture is NOT mine, it is just a picture I found..lol

My first beta is next Monday and it cant get here fast enough, the guys don't want to know any HPT ( home pregnancy test) results, they are afraid of getting a false positive so they want to just wait for Monday's results. I can't blame them because all this testing is going to drive me insane. All the "is it a line, or an evap" or am I just seeing things is going to send me over the edge. I will say that I am glad in a way that I haven't seen a line yet because that would scare me, and make me wonder that much more about how many are in there..lol

So I will hold on to hope that this shadow is a sign of things to come and that one little baby bean is in there snuggling in for 8 more months

The dreaded 2WW

SOOO I have entered the dreaded 2WW (week wait) but it is more like 9 days. We had our transfer on the 8th and it went great!! We transferred 2 fresh 5 day blasts. I was nervous at first but the guys were so calm, or at least they didn't let their anxiety show through. It went just like my previous times except our RE was VERY involved. He talked to us in the waiting room, gave us the paper work to sign and walked me to the transfer room, my last clinic this was all handled by the staff I didn't even see the RE till I was already on the table..lol This RE is very personable and had excellent bed side manner. I even got a copy of the picture they take of the embryos which I thought was nice so that way I could have a keepsake as well.

So a little about my pre-transfer experience. I flew into NY on Wednesday and it was an easy flight, I had a middle seat but the flight 2was not fully booked and lucky me the seat next to me (window) was open! I LOVE the window seat because I NEVER move on a flight, I use the restroom prior, I HATE public restrooms and the thought of using an airplane restroom gives me the creeps so unless it is dire I stay away. Being in a window seat is so much better because you never have to get up to allow other in/out. I arrived in NY at the height of traffic and the hotel is a good hour to hour and ten minutes away so this meant it took me 2 . 5 hrs. to get there, but good thing my driver was really cool. I finally arrived and I was beat, I had bee up since 3am because I wanted to see my hubby off before he went to work and I could not get back to sleep. I pretty much just ate and went to bed. I knew the next day would be a long one because the guys were going to show me around the "real New York" as they put it. I walked, rode the subway, at amazing food and saw the typical New York landmarks but from afar, which was best because it meant no crowds or tons of people.



On Friday they took me to Blue Hill Farm which is the most beautiful farm/grounds I have ever seen. Never mind the farm to table freshness of the food but everything else as well was simply perfect. They have a small market and it is just filled with any and everything that is simple but perfect. Oh how I wish I lived back east just so I could visit this place and have lunch/dinner every so often.

So now I am 2dp5dt and am not dying to pee on a stick..lol Not yet, I know by tomorrow I will break down and pee, and now that I am talking about it I want to, but I am going to wait, I would be scared out of my mind if I got a line right now..OMG ok yes I will wait.

Thinking THICK

Alright so the last time I updated I was bummed out because my lining was not cooperating and it was not thin enough to start my Estrace. WELL Last Monday I had another ultrasound and low and behold that after the Provera and me doing anything and everything I could it worked. I never did get my period which was SUPER strange because I took the Provera for 6 days AND drank parsley & ginger tea as well as a lot of papaya juice. I googled how to induce my period and those were some of the things listed. SO anyways last Monday I had an u/s and my lining was 4.5!! Yes you read that right 4.5 and no period, just spotting a little. Now things were back on!! I started my Estrace and lowered my Lupron and yesterday I went to have another u/s and this time we wanted a fluffy & thick lining. WELL how is 15 for you?! Yup my lining went from 4.5 to a 15! That was just the average and in some spots is was 16, so this turned out to be excellent news because the guys egg donor was already on meds to do her retrieval because she could not wait any longer for me. SOOO this means that I will be doing a fresh transfer next week sometime!! I am not sure on exact dates because it all depends on the donor now. I am still not completely relaxed because you just never know what can happen and until you are on the table at the IVF clinic about to transfer anything can happen, so I still need good thoughts for our egg donor. We want to have a good number of eggs but most important is the quality, then there fertilization... Still so many things for me to think about going awry.
 

Surro family update

It has been a while since I updated about my surro family. They are all doing so wonderful! M&M are the best dads a girl could ask for they are simply amazing! The girls are getting big so quickly and it is again time for another trip to visit them and I cannot wait! I got a few pics the other day of them playing with bubbles and having such a blast.